Two weeks ago today I had my back operation and I'm feeling so much better as a result of it. I'm moving better and I'm getting my flexibility back. That's a good thing. I'm also tired whenever I leave the house. But I'm bored. I'm fine indoors and that makes me think I can do more than I really can. And then I regret it. I forget that one reason I feel ok is the pills. It's the lure of being well and the freedom to do things. Then reality crashes in.
I've been here before and suffered as a result. It's partially about boredom. There are only so many hours I can sit looking out of the window before I get stir crazy.
It's about balance.